Yes, you. Can we talk for a bit?
I know you're always busy and all, dreaming up things, wonderful and nice. And as always, I thank you for that, humbly. For if you don't dream, there is nothing for us to create, and maybe nothing new to experience.
For today though, I'd like to tell you something. This is because I see you sad and uncertain at times. I know that what you are going through is normal, just like with anyone who pursues something beyond herself. I understand that it is your pleasure to learn, and with pleasure comes pain. Some pains are bearable and temporary, but yours seemed like eternal. Maybe I can help?
See, you always look at the future. And when you sometimes look back in the past, you only see the undesirable. You seem to only remember what needs to be solved. You seem to always just look for problems, as if you can solve all of them, for some perfect future?
May I suggest that together we look into the past, wholly? Aside from not so pretty ones, we also look into what we've done that made us happier in the actual moments? Walk with me...
Yesterday, we spent the whole day hand embroidering that doll clothing piece we started making a pattern for a few weeks ago.
|designing a wedding dress for the first time...|
It was fun because we did embroidery for the first time in maybe 20-something years! The last time we tried our hand at it was in fourth grade, as part of art/crafts class. It was really fascinating to see thread build texture into the fabric.
|trying hand embroidery again..|
It sure made our right hand aching later that afternoon, but we listened to our body and relaxed those muscles by doing some watercolor painting.
|Non-female looking male portrait, finally :D|
Oh, and don't forget that we shipped six packages early this week. We are always grateful to our buyers for their unwavering support for our craft. May I remind you that we always seem to be smiling when we write those messages for them. Those moments are what we are all about, remember that. And hey, you kept us safe as always. Such a wonderful guardian you are to this existence.
Last weekend was also exciting because we went to Divisoria to replenish our notions, packaging materials and to look for that perfect lace to use for that wedding dress. I know it's a little disappointing to not find that lace we want. I guess, life is just full of surprises, yes? And that's okay, because this led us to venture into another unknown - embroidering our own lace and that I know, excites you, too.
Hmmm so whatelse to remind you of those lovely things that we do...
Ahhh.. remember that we've been wanting to organize our threads for so long? Well, last Friday, we took some 20 or so minutes to the garage, poke some nails and voila, we now have a neat bunch of threads! This gives us some peace of mind for years to come for sure haha!
We also painted a lot more lately, experiencing watercolor's uncertainties again. When we realized we wanted to draw much better eyes, eyebrows and lashes, we researched and studied back in pencils. Wow, that was really fascinating to carve those eyes out that our sketches looked like renaissance statues.
But you seem to forget all of this. In these wonderful times, you just sit at the back and let me happen. You just watch. It seems that you are resting from it all, and I don't mind. Rest in me, if you must. I don't get tired of happening anyway, but you do, with all that dreaming.
So this post is a simple reminder that, you, my beautiful ego Shasha, don't need to beat yourself up for being not enough. You dream the most beautiful dreams, for us to happen and continue to happen for eternity.
all the love,